I attempted suicide in 2003. I came pretty close a second time in 2006. If I am being honest—and I have never told anyone about this—I think about it pretty much every day. Maybe I am overstating things a bit. Most days I don’t think about it at all. But when things get tough, when the fear and anxiety get unmanageable, that is inevitably where my brain goes. I certainly don’t romanticize it, but if I would be lying if that isn’t often the first solution I think of—just check out and get away from all these problems.
Wow. That one hit hard. No doubt a lot of emotion welled up writing that. Appreciate the strength to put this one out there. Contextualizing this frankly and with sobering reality helps us all generate empathy. Reminds me of Pema Chodron's discourse on "shared humanity". worth a listen, and another, and another (for me right now since it's been a while)...https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lhYw_KahNXM&ab_channel=Tricycle
Wow. The "Take care of yourselves" instead of the normal GFY really hit me ... Your writing is simply amazing. I am mentally paralyzed not knowing the direction I need to go. This just makes it a bit easier to simply take that first step to get the clutter out of my head, heart and physical storage units. Thank you. - Al Cheech
If I ever drift to this way of thought, I'm always reminded of Tim Ferriss practical thoughts on suicide chapter in ToT. Something along the lines of "suicide wont get rid of the pain and anguish, it will just repackage it, multiply it and give it to those closest to you". It always snaps me out of it again.
thanks for sharing :) i'd been shutdown since you published this because of depression but i bookmarked it to read it later... i just read it and i think i'm not gonna think suicidal for a while...
Jared, thank you for your writing. This was quite timely as I just lost a long time close friend to suicide. Your sharing was extremely helpful and added significantly to what I have heard from a minister friend and various sources. JV
Thank you for sharing! Being so candid about your condition is a big step forward. I like to follow you on twitter because you’re true to yourself and to others. Say what you think! It is a rare quality in this society! Love you for that!
Jared, please take care of yourself. You are helping a lot of people. If things get too much please let yourself be helped.
Powerful.
Thank you for this, Jared. Very much indeed.
I waited to read this until I had Bob Marley's "Don't Worry, Be Happy" playing.
Thank you for failing at your suicide attempt, learning from it and passing more of your real life information on to me.
Wow. That one hit hard. No doubt a lot of emotion welled up writing that. Appreciate the strength to put this one out there. Contextualizing this frankly and with sobering reality helps us all generate empathy. Reminds me of Pema Chodron's discourse on "shared humanity". worth a listen, and another, and another (for me right now since it's been a while)...https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lhYw_KahNXM&ab_channel=Tricycle
Thank you for sharing such an intimate part of your life, I hope that others in your position read it and decide to push on.
Wow. The "Take care of yourselves" instead of the normal GFY really hit me ... Your writing is simply amazing. I am mentally paralyzed not knowing the direction I need to go. This just makes it a bit easier to simply take that first step to get the clutter out of my head, heart and physical storage units. Thank you. - Al Cheech
If I ever drift to this way of thought, I'm always reminded of Tim Ferriss practical thoughts on suicide chapter in ToT. Something along the lines of "suicide wont get rid of the pain and anguish, it will just repackage it, multiply it and give it to those closest to you". It always snaps me out of it again.
thanks for sharing :) i'd been shutdown since you published this because of depression but i bookmarked it to read it later... i just read it and i think i'm not gonna think suicidal for a while...
Great piece. Thanks for sharing.
You never cease to surprise me with your writing. Keep on keepin' on
Amen, brother.
Been there done that too. Grateful to still be here. Thanks for sharing Jared!
Thank you for this post, Jared. This hit home.
Jared, thank you for your writing. This was quite timely as I just lost a long time close friend to suicide. Your sharing was extremely helpful and added significantly to what I have heard from a minister friend and various sources. JV
Thank you for sharing! Being so candid about your condition is a big step forward. I like to follow you on twitter because you’re true to yourself and to others. Say what you think! It is a rare quality in this society! Love you for that!